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Alive (2016)
03:49
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Don’t mistake me I don’t wanna die
it’s just that I’m so tired of being alive
don’t worry for me I don’t plan to go
but if I did, i think that it’d be alright
079900/069900 002200
##I don’t want to die
I’m just tired of being alive
no I don’t want to die
I just want to.. stop being for a little while
Sometimes when I lie awake at night
thinking of the monsters that used to bite
I hope that they know I miss them too
but my fears have left me in an empty bed
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I’m too legit to conform to late night shitposting.
I used to lie away at night and contemplate existence-
think about the fragility of life while i stared at the clock, willing the numbers to slow down-
time, the essence of life itself constantly plodding on
-But I moved on,
and I will tell you my secrets because it’s 4 in the morning somewhere and secrets are for spilling like the blood that spills from our bodies and the tears that don’t when we are hurt-
and we all hurt-
time heals all things but there are an awful lot of people out there and I’d wonder if there’s enough time to go around
but that’s gone now-
Time is a construct we made to ease our minds but it’s grown too small to hold our hearts
like bathrooms too narrow for our souls and in the end is is our bodies who suffer for us....
they say boxes are for squares but who cares when all I’ve known is a bed too short for my feet-
and you’d kill for a chair that won’t make your back ache- if they want to start with a blank slate then let them
but I need to rest for a few while I wallow in that and the fact-
life goes on while the skrubs get rekt and I don’t know if I’m playing the wrong server or the wrong game
but nothing matters because we’re all dying one day.
so you can keep your sadness all season long but I’m oceans ahead of you buddy
tripping on eternalism while you stumble on bud but that’s okay-
I just needed to believe in a world where tomorrow exists and I’m shitposting in it
because if I talk long enough I might speak something worth saying
instead of just praying to gods I don’t believe in to tell them about what I had for breakfast today
I’m too legit to conform to late night shitposting.
the void is coming for us all and I welcome the return to nothing where we all began
the big bang-
I’ll write my sorrows any time of day while you wait for it to kick in an hour past midnight
with cup in one hand and phone in the other
like a lover
but I’ve got work in the morning and anyway you probably only live once.
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Mine (2017)
03:05
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I walked in darkness// I watched birds learn to fly
I listened for a moment// I heard a small world die.
For long I have traveled// past where flowers lie
strangers who never tarry// I turned my head in kind.
I walk in shadows// a world of my design
I listen for a stranger// seeking what is mine.
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In dreams we are simple // in fight, unkind
the land turns to ash, and still you seek mine.
and those who would vest you // with power, to blind
with sweetness uncertain // I offer you time.
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the struggle, eternal // with scales divine
I suffer for silence // and still you seek mine.
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Wishing Well (2016)
01:21
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x97xxx x76 x54
Dried up wishing well
Heard it all before
broken promises
like coins on the floor
So many faces
peering down
Looking for dreams
never to be found
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Understand This (2019)
02:27
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10 UNDERSTAND THIS
Don't let them tell you you're too young for this- a mid life crisis,
they don't hardly know where your life is.
Can't wait till forty-five, Lord knows how long you'll survive in a world like this-
go fund those bills for what keeps you alive;
Quarter to a century that most don't make-
but even half feels like an achievement, make no mistake.
When I see those from across that line I’m awed, but my second take-
how long till you're taken?
They'll laugh and say “kid, you're still young" and in a a sense, they're right-
you've only just begun to feel it: the aches, time won't heal this- but at least.
we're still. having. fun...
So call it what you will because the dice are long cast
And all the friends of all my friends are all dropping fast
You know I wonder, which status update will be my last?
'cause when the air fills with a familiar name-
is it death or is it fame?
I'm scared to ask around these days,
though it won't change the outcome
The greatest freedom I was given was the freedom to die
I didn't know it when she told me but I held it inside
They'll lie and say anything just to keep you alive
But the truth is that they're far too scared to understand why
Understand This: I'm not trying to be fallen.
Understand This: I don't want to make you cry.
Understand This: I'm not looking for a darkness.
Understand This: don't think I never tried.
Understand This: sometimes life is awful heavy.
Understand This: I'm not out looking to die.
Understand This: though I know it hurts to watch me,
Understand This: sometimes you have to fall to fly.
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